so the middle school kids are graduating… and going off to college… i am sure you know about their lives from my postings by now… so… maybe i should reflect back on what my highschool days were like… lets see… what do i remember….

7th grade… had my first girlfriend. Leslie. i was soooo surprised a girl liked me. cause i smelled of sweat all the time. I wore silk shirts with flowers on them… and red jeans. i thought i was cool. you know GUile from street fighter? i had that hair too. cool guy. not. i was also overweight and people picked on me. she broke up with me after 2 weeks… cause i wouldnt have sex with her. her usual boyfriends were in their late 20s… again… 7th grade!!!!as in… 14 years old! slut.

8th grade… oh… that was the days…. summer… worked out. lost the silk shirts… lost the fat… wore cologne… and hair gel… but… i moved to wearing cowboy jeans and boots. yuck. at least it was an improvement. Heather st.John. I had the longest crush on her…. she was from the south. southern girls are sooo hot. i rmemeber the ONLY kiss i ever got from her was on my cheek. it was so nice. i actually remember it more clearly than my first sexual experience. this was also my first kiss… period. on my cheek… again… pathetic! I remember tana browski… fat overweight girl… i was in love with.. i touched her boobies once by accident. i thought it was her stomache. that overweight.
High school… i was definitly moving up… wore suits sometimes… better clothes… worked out regularly… got picked on a lot still…. but life was better. i was getting more girls now… so… angel montalvo. 2 years together… puerto rican… big huge ass… but… man could she suck a cock. at least for that age. she was too pressing on me. wanted too much… sex… (still a virgin)… serious marriage talk. i understood… and actually wanted the same thing… just… it was too fast. she started wanting to know every move i make… blah blah… i broke up with her. dated my first asian ass… beverly. she was amazing. I was in love with her for the longest time. sometimes i still miss her…. this is 7 years later! she was great… innocent… cute… smart… funny… outgoing… great in bed. then… well… i was a jerk. she cheated on me… i cheated on her… we abused each other real bad. then she found a good guy….. woo something was his name. a korean kid. good for her. from what i heard of him… he is amazing for her. I remember thinking if he hurts her… i would get soooopissed off. i still would. she deserves good love. and it sounds like he can give it to her.
i remmeber roberto. big mexican dude… tough as nails… we use to bust on him saying he swam across the ocean to get to america.,

i remember will… japanese liar… joking. he said he was japanese… but actually cambodian… chinese… something liek that. he kept lots of secrets. but … he was my best friend. long time. miss him. freaking kung fu master…. got me into martial arts. we use to date hte same girls… at the same time… then she would think she was playing us. we would joke around and play her like a tool.

i remmeber peggy and tina. peggy was caniving… but… smart… and had a hard life. she made it ok thought. and she was beautiful. she was the sharp personality… out of necessity. not cause she was evil. at heart… she cared for her friends and loved ones the most. tina… indian girl… reallly dorky… till she grew up. hot as all hell now. i think she has a great boyfriend last i heard. doing well… still depending on parents… kind of. not a big deal though… still young.

i remember rick mcvoy… i use to hate him . why? good looking SOB… like dean caine. built too. but he was a total jerk… and well… could be i was jealous. kinda short though. i wonder what he is doing. we didnt really talk…. just i always noticed him. he was one of the cool kids

i remember getting smashed into lockers. i rmemeber getting beat up. i remember getting hit by a rock when i was jogging. my neighbor called me a homo… and threw a rock at me out of his car. WILL and i… cut his car tires that night.

i remmeber tonia… girl from upstate new york i wanted to get with. she is running for government positions now… graduated IVY league… smart girl. nothing bad about her…..

I remmeber josh. always him and peggy together…. smart guy. poor guy. parents gone… alone… finished vala-dictorian (spelling ok?) … top of the class. went on to harvard. great cat.

I remember tim kirchner. 2nd mathemetician in the country at his age. 14 years old… and a braniac. we stopped being friends… but i see his dad at Best buy retail store sometimes. tim has kids now… 4 of them i think. owns 2 mcdonalds. could have gone farther… BUT… he is happy anbd that is what really counts. i think he is doing just fine.

I remember my first time. sex that is. strange girl… looked like heather… met her in the city. i slept with her the first night… cause she looked like heather. she knew… and felt bad for me. gave herself to me. nice girl. didnt watch tv. only books and a cat in her apartment. hope she is well. dont know her name… but she was pretty hot. i lied and told her i was not a virgin. she figured out my lie when i came in the first 10 seconds!

i remember going to center city on weekends… and getting into fights. i use to kick some serious ass… but… only causee i got mine kicked a lot too.

I remmeber hiding in beverly’s house. we would make out and do each other after school…. then sometimes her dad would come home early from work…. so i would hide in the closet… till he went to sleep or till i had a chance to sneak out. usually meant i would be in a fetal position for about 5 hours on end. it was worth it. i rmember one time… i ran off… with a condom still on my dangalang… it fell off in my pants… and landed on the driveway… i remember… debating wether to stop and get it… or just keep going. daddy would think… it was someone elses… or… someone just porkin his daughter. nothing happened.

I remember being 16 and reading comic books. i remember being 17 and playing with toys and action figures. shhhhh. thats a secret!

I remember melissa… really hot latin girl… that was soooo polite… and sweet… and gentle. i THINK… she might have liked me… for who i am… but… didnt like that i was a nerd… or uncoool… or… well… i tried to be a show off sometimes. god i wanted her. i am being a jerk… cause… this is my blog… but… truly… i remember fantasizing about her… not in dirty ways… but… just… about looking at her… wishing to hold her… give her flowers… draw her picture… anything… just wished i could have spent time with her….. never was part of my life though.

i remmeber lunch time. constantly worrying about bullies. they would put crap in my hair. sometimes try to hit me. Will had my back. we would go out and play hakey-sac… and… do martial arts at the same time… during lunch…. .sometimes someone would fuck with us. will and i were at our best then. broken arms… broken legs… broken hearts. god bless ya will… hope you are happy whatever you doing out there….