I went out on a limb…. took a risk…. do i think it’s a good idea? No. not at all.
But… i did it to show i respect “us” and so that future me never has to look back and think “well, shit… i shoulda tried…. ”
that one that got away? nah. I will NEVER have that situation again in my life….i reached out… grabbed her, and held her close…. i understand people break apart… but it’s never gonna be “just didn’t work out”……
when the demons came scraping at the door, and hell scorched the earth… when you felt alone, and didn’t know where to turn…. i can sleep at night….
cause i put my hand out there, burned myself for us…. NOT for you… for us.
see… when the world is burning…. i know it’s hard to think about anything but yourself and your own safety…. i understand that.
so i don’t blame you… or anyone…. for saving yourself. concentrate on yourself. i know how that feels. i’ve been there too….
but… in these times… it’s rare for love to come forth… and i truly believe, what we need in times of desperation …. is stability.
i made a promise… and i stuck by it. when all else was in the air and you were in turmoil…i want to show you … there is stability….
you can’t win every single day… but you can’t lose them all either…..
I seriously DO NOT think it’s a good idea for us to push forward…. because while i’m interested in us… and “us” is my priority… i know, right now… it’s not yours.
your mind is elsewhere…. and in this desperate state… you need to focus elsewhere. i want to support you as a friend… and i’m there for you as a friend with anything i can do…
At the same time…. i didn’t want to hide my side and my emotions…. i made a promise about us and a commitment… now that can never be questioned….