I learned a valuable lesson today. Don’t help people, and expect them to be kind to you. the only thing you can expect in return? A kick in the nuts.
many say don’t expect anything in return…. but… it’s human o expect at least a thank you. at least for the other person to treat you kindly… but i learned, sometimes you won’t even get that.
My dad told me when i was a kid… “living your life in service of someone you love is the best man you can be….”
fuck that. it’s bullshit. when you need them, they’ll leave you high and dry to burn.
My mom was right. take care of yourself and if you got extra time cause bored, go ahead and throw the wolves some scraps.
I’ve bent over backwards and twisted my life and fucked myself over so many times to help people around me… i mean gone CRAZY to help people… completely changed my personality and mind and heart to be a person that can help them… sacrificed my morals, standards, beliefs… just to make them a bit more comfortabl… because i love them…… where are they now? huh, dad?
I should have listened to you. on your last days you cursed all those you helped who never showed up when you needed them. you wished they had been taken instead of you. I thought you were in pain, and losing your mind. no… you were right. i should have listened.
I’m not saying i’m gonna be a jerk… but this is a solemn promise. if someone needs me, and what they want, requires energy on my part… they can go fuck themselves. I’m tired of people using me emotionally. so so tired. all so they can get through a “slump”… and then leave me empty and alone when they are done with me. no more.